O MORTALS, whither are you hurrying? What are you about? Why do you tumble up and down, wretches, like blind men? You are going a wrong way, and have forsaken the right. You seek prosperity and happiness in a wrong place, where it is not; nor do you give credit to another who shows you where it is. Why do you seek it without? It is not in body: if you do not believe me, look upon Myro, look upon Ofellius. It is not in wealth: if you do not believe me, look upon Croesus, look upon the rich of the present age, how full of lamentation their life is. It is not in power; for, otherwise, they who have been twice and thrice consuls must be happy, but they are not. - EPICTETUS. DISCOURSES. Book iii. §22. ¶3
In my Stoic reading this morning we studied the above noted passage from Epictetus. My Facebook comment was the following:
"The Tyranny of the urgent... our world moves at such a rapid pace. We fill our days in the pursuit of so many things that have no intrinsic value in the grand scheme of our lives. How many of us are ill from a lack of time spent in healthy pursuits? How many of us now reap the crop of the seeds that we planted in our past? Let us be ever mindful of our actions and the consequences that come from those actions. Let's take the time to care for our bodies, and to nurture our souls to the best of our abilities. To pursue those pursuits that are the "big rocks" in our lives and not to get bogged down by the daily minutiae. To live in the present without regret from the past or fear of the future. To live a flourishing life, filled with joy and steadfastness."
If you are not familiar with the parable of the "Pebbles, Sand and a Jar" here is is, accredited appropriately to its author, philosopher and speaker Celia S. Hecht http://www.inlightimes.com/archives/2002/04/pebbles-sand-jar.htm
As a wife, mother, daughter, sister, business owner, friend, all of the various roles that I have in this life, what are my big rocks? The largest rock in my life would be my amazing husband, Michel Daw, my rock of Gibraltar. My first rock is him to continue to nurture our relationship. My next rock would be my children, to be able to make time to continue to see them and spend quality time together even though they are grownup with their own households and careers.
The next big rock is my relationship with my mother who has been ill lately and is coming to the end of her life. A huge priority in my life right now is to spend as much time as possible with her while she is still able to have conversations, to let her know, as always, that she is loved and has so much value to me. To let her know that, no matter what adventure may await us after death, she will continue on in my memories of her. I am focusing on enjoying sitting with her in quiet moments, looking at photographs, talking of the past, nesting with her in her illness. Trying to squeeze as much juice out of the fruit of her life while she is still with us.
In focusing on spending time with my Mum, I then come to the big rock of my sisters. They are the ones who are bearing the weight of caring for an aging parent. I am the one who lives four hours away from my mother while they are all within a fifteen minute drive, one actually lives in the same home. They are the ones who are struggling with the daily requirements while trying to balance their own big rocks of marriage, family and health. It is important for me to take the time now to try to relieve some of their burdens, to continue to nurture my relationship with them. To keep the lines of communication open so that they have someone to talk to when the darkness of illness begins to envelop their own lights. To be an ear to vent to when everything just feels like it is too much to bear.
My next big rocks are smaller in size but are still big enough to need to go into the jar next. My business and my friends. Working from home there is often the challenge of time bleeding away with the tyranny of the urgent. I am starting to enforce the practice of setting "business hours" so that I can be more productive with my time and more focused when I am working. My friends are the rock that is very hard to fit into the jar at the moment with the increased need to travel and visit my mother. Many of our friends are also involved in the Stoic workshop sessions that we hold in our home on a monthly basis. This means that they are wrapped into the bedrock in my life, Stoicism. Stoicism is what my jar is made of, it is not glass, but made of fired obsidian, strong and having weight to it.
What does Stoicism bring to my life as a practice and what are the details that are encapsulated in that philosophy as my personal life philosophy?
living consciously (planning with reservation, knowing that things can change with a moments notice)
stewardship (my body is the only one that I get, my home, etc.)
mindful of our planet (trying to live with as small a footprint as possible, conscious of our place in the universe)
virtues (trying to live with the virtues as my guidepost, doing the right thing because it is the right thing)
letting go (knowing what is in my control and what is not)
relationship (my place in the world and the importance of those around me)
Now that my big rocks are covered I know that I have very little time for the minutiae that comes into my life. I have lately found that some pursuits that I find less than fruitful have been pushing for prominence in my life at the expense of others. Maybe this has been a coping mechanism for my mind to process the news of my mother's ill health and imminent passing? I have not been living as consciously as I would like.
What are some of the pursuits that I would like to minimize in my life?
Facebook (while valuable for keeping up relationships with distant family/friends and fellow Stoic students, it needs to be kept to a minimum)
Television (our television is already relegated to the basement, but, this has become much too prominent lately)